um yeh my son is going to be a year in 7 days. how scary is that? it seems like just yesterday i was holding this tiny lil baby in my arms, rocking him til 2 am, wishing he'd fall asleep so i can finalyl go to sleep, only for him to wake up screaming at 3am again...haha. but seriously., time flies by too quickly and before you know it, a part of your life is already history. 

everythings going...well going. shits been pretty rough lately, but im getting through it, one day at a time. Erik and I have been a long way, and our relationship is just getting stronger and stronger. Somedays were at each others throats, but then we make up aftr like 10 min, so its all good lol. All that matters is that we love each other with everything that is in us, and we can make it through anything.

My medical shit is just not going away. Ive been through a million tests, and they still dont know whats going on. They want to run more tests and I just dont know how much longer i can stand it. My stomach is just all screwed up, and i cant take being sick anymore. Ive been sick for the last YEAR now, and i feel like ive missed out in my sons life bc i spend it in the bathroom, or feeling like i have no energey whatsoever. Im afraid to leave the house bc i cant be that far away from a bathroom. I just wish the doctors would find out what is wrong with me already so i can get on with my life! And all these dumb tests are just making shit worse.

UGHH. well thats my ranting and raving. 

til nxt time.

[	mood	|	nauseated	]
[	music	|	Gilmore Girls	]

april 23

sept 20

happiness

forever

erik and gina

the end.

<333

im just happy. sry guys for once, in the last few weeks, erik and i have reached a point where were not letting the stress get to us. so yeh,  i just hope that after we have everything figured out, things wont be so stressful.

*love u baby*

We laugh with each other
live for each other
and will love each other for life,
our lifetime ahead together
lies ahead hand in hand
and we promise to love each other
the best that we can
for better or for worse
Always n Forever

[	mood	|	drained	]
[	music	|	RENT	]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SETH! I LOVE U!!!

im happy......VERY happy.cant wait for christmas. i get to see my kari, spend time with my loverr and both families, i get to see my jenn nxt week*i cant effin wait, its been WAY too long*, annnnnd monday, dec 26, erik n my year ann, were goin down to the city to see....RENT!!!! ahhh im so xcited. this is by far the best christmas ever. and i love everyone in my life.!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE!

*love u forever. may2007*

[	mood	|	ecstatic	]
[	music	|	Shania Twain	]

IM ENGAGED =)

yup. thats right. Erik and I are officially engaged. I am THE happiest person EVER right now. I cant even put my emotions in words. Hes the best thing thts ever happend to me, and i cant wait to spend the rest of my life with him. =D

um, well thats my big exciting news. im gona attempt some sleep. i doubt thats gonna happen, but ima try. I gotta wake up early 2moro, to bring mimmi n grandpa n anne (eriks grandparents n aunt) to the airport cuz theyre goin to Norway for Christmas, and then i have work at 12.

so til nxt time..

'when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible <3

LOVE U BABY FOREVER!!!!!! <3

( fun thing i stole from jenn..love u -) )

[	mood	|	aggravated	]
[	music	|	7th Heaven	]

so Thanksgiving break was def nice. I needed some time off from work and all that to just relax. And i got to see my baby, and spend some great time with him, even tho we hit a hard spot right now, but i know well get thru it but im procrastinating my essay, so heres this cute thing i stole from manda =)

1* First grade teacher's name: Mrs.Ruddy or something like that...it was in PS14. i dont rememeber...

2* Last thing you said: how was practice to melissa

3* Last song you sang: sang 'let me go' by 3Doors Down...cuz nicky got it stuck in my head :P

4* Last person you hugged: one of my babies Danny gave me a huge hug today bc he loves me and wanted to put the spaghetti sauce he had on him all over me.

5* Last thing you laughed at: Eriks petty excuse why he shouldnt go to his drill tonight. haha nice try

6* Last time you said ah: when nicky was telling me about his new girl lol.

*PRESENT*

9* What color socks are you wearing: pink with white stripes

10* What's under your bed: a bunch of crap

11* What time did you wake up today: i woke up at 7, but didnt get out of bed til 7:20, i had work at 8.

12* Current taste: Hersheys Dark Chocolate. mhm

13* Current hair: down n curly...kinda a mess from work. lol

14* whos ur bf/gf?: Erik =)

15* Current annoyance: my neck is KILLING me, and my dad is in a pissy mood bc...idk why

16* Current longing: to be with erik

17* Current desktop background: pic of the trees in the back of the Ambulance Corps. Bay, bc the leaves looked sooo pretty, so i took a pic, and now its on my computer. i love fall =)

18* Current worry: erik and i. not a big one. itll come thru

19* Current hate: that love always has to be so complicated.

20* Current favorite article of clothing: the sweatpants im wearing and my one pair of jeans that fit me.

26* If you could play an instrument, what would it be: guitar n drums n piano

27* Favorite color: BLUEE

29* How tall are you: 5'1

30* Current favorite word/saying: fuck you.

31* Favorite book: all of nicholas sparks'.. ive read them all, guess im a sucker for romance lol--YEHH me too.

32* Favorite season: winter & fall. and spring n summer when its not so hot.

33* People from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: my grandma n uncle.

*FUTURE*

35* Where do you want to go for college? im in college ( occc), but i wana go to concordia or somewhere in Italy.
36* What is your career going to be like: teaching elementary school
37* How many kids do you want: 2. thats all. lol

*HAVE YOU EVER...*

39* Said "I love you" and meant it: yupp, say it everyday. =)

40* Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish: um, no
41* Been to New York: i live in NY

42* Been to Florida: like, 3 yrs ago maybe?

43* Been to California: no

44* Been to Hawaii: no

45* Been to Mexico: no

46* Been to Germany: no

47* Been to China: no

52* Do you have a crush(es) on someone: not really a crush, more like deep in love.

53* What book are you reading now? just finished At First Sight, and now im re-reading True Believer, bc i skipped parts lol.

54* Worst feeling in the world: feeling lost, lonely..--yeh pretty much

55* What is the first thing you do when you wake in the morning: wish i didnt have to get out of bed

56* How many rings before you answer: how ever many it takes to get to my phone

57* Future daughter's name: Angelina Rose, Leyla Marie.

58* Future son's name: Andre Scott, Daniel James ( im still deciding on that one), Erik Matthew, and Landon Patrick (haha very irish).....i wish i could afford a million kids lol.

59* Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: Erik Jr. the firefighter. =)

60* If you could have any job you wanted: Foresnics, Dr, Marine Biologist, Vet, the list goes on, but teaching is #1

61* Wish you were in a steady relationship? got one =)

62* Do you have future College plans: yeah, graduate

63* Piercings: 2 in each ear, and belly..and soon to be nose =)

64* Do you do drugs: did.

65* What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use? suave--ocean breeze

66* What are you most scared of? death, heights, clowns, being alone, spiders

67* What clothes do you sleep in? pj pants, tank top, shorts, and if its REALLY hot in the summer, bra n underwear, bc my parents dont believe in the ac

69* Where do you want to get married: i want the traditional wedding, but i also want to be married on a beach somewhere, like my parents did.

70* If you could change anything about yourself what would that be: looks. and i wish i could change my attiude sometimes. it gets me in trouble. alot.

71* Who do you really hate: my boss

72* Are you timely or always late: fashionably late--hell yeh

73* Do you have a job: WA....hopefully soon Moblile Life Secretary.

74* Do you like being around people? i cant stand ppl

75* Best feeling in the world?: loving someone and having them love you back, and being with my baby n friends n fam

76* Are you for world peace?: of course..

77* Are you a health freak: not at all

78* Do you have a "type" of person you always go after? not really, but i usually go for the quiet ones...i think bc they balance my loud n bold personality lol/

79* Do you want someone you can't have?: nope, i got the one i want

80* Are you lonely right now: yeah i am, and it sucks

81* Ever afraid you'll never get married: haha no, im happily engaged =) love u baby

82* Do you want to get married: in 2yrs, and counting.

*IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...*

84* Cried: yeh, last night....erik and i got into a fight n said things we didnt mean

85* Bought Something: Sobe drink n cosmo brownie. mhm.

86* Gotten Sick: i was sick all last week, n im just getin over it, i sitll havea  cough n stuffy nose

87* Sang: i was singing to "let me go" by 3doors down earlier

88* Said I Love You: yup, before i got off the phone with erik when he got to his fire drill.

89* Wanted To Tell Someone You Liked them: im pretty sure he knows i like him...haha...

90* Met Someone? yep, some ppl who want to put there kid in WA

91* Moved On: no not in the past 48 hrs

92* Talked To Someone?: yup erik n nicky n seth

93* Had A Serious Talk: yup. nicky n i had a serious talk about his new girl

94* Missed Someone: yeah...erik <3

95* Hugged Someone: didnt i just answer this....my baby danny

96* Yelled at Someone: yeh, i yelled at erik to suck it up and go to his drill

98* Kissed someone: last night kiss bye from erik

99* Have you ever been heartbroken: yeah.. of course.

/*\

the last..

01. Movie you saw: Just Married last night with erik n bjorn.

02. Food you ate: steak n mashed potatoes n bread. mhm
03. Place you drove: home from work
04. Person you hugged: danny
05. Person you kissed: erik last night

06. Person you talked to: my sister

07. Type of Snapple you drank: kiwi strawberry
08. Time you masturbated: um. no.
09. Curse you said: fucker.

10. Book you read: i just finished n.sparks At First Sight, and now im reading True Believer (nsparks)
11. Song you listened to: Let me Go- 3Doors Down
12. When did you shower last: last night

13. Place you bought something: Midway

14. Thing you printed out: pic of eriks gifts online. im gona go broke

15. Time you hit something with your car: um, when i first got my license, this kid n i collided.

16. Alcohol you drank: wine for thanksgiving

17. Girl's boobs you touched: i accidently hit annies boobs....lol haha love u<3
18. Time you went to Wawa: what the fuck is wawa?

19. Magazine you bought: cosmo.
20. Person's phone you had to use: the WA phone bc mine had so service

21. Thing you lost: my chapstick! it was in my pocket n now its gone =(

22. Cartoon you watched: the simpsons with scott bc erik wouldnt let me watch what i wanted to watch

23. Place you slept that wasn't yours: eriks bed. well, its my bed now too. lol.
24. Madonna song you heard and liked: i like all the madonna songs.

25. Comment you left someone on myspace: telling chula i miss her, n mad she went back early n that i love her.

26. Told someone you love them: erik.forever.

27. Slapped someone's ass: erik.bc hes gay.lol

28. Time you laughed at someone, not with them: when marcey tripped over a toy at work, and tried to play it off like no one saw

29. Costume you wore for Halloween: dominatrix with erik. hell yeh. handcuffs and all

30. Raunchy place you had sex: haha um, the firehouse...im sry it was a fantasy of mine lol

.loveu.forever.

[	mood	|	aggravated	]
[	music	|	7th Heaven	]

Sunday was THE best day of my life.....im on cloud 9, n couldnt be happier. im just not sure if this happiness is gonna last long....well wait, that came on bad, but,, once 2 ppl find out about this, theyre not gonna like it at all, n try to talk me out of it, and stomp all over my happiness, but,thats when i tell them where to stick it, and leave. haha sry if that didnt make sense....but needless to say, no one can ruin my happiness....not even YOU TWO! um and today, my mom REALLLLLLLY pissed me off, and told me that it makes her sick that im her daughter, and i make her sick, n blah blah blah...well...guess what, it makes me sick that ur my mother n that u treat me the way you do, and dont love me...and im gona laugh when it all comes n bites u in the ass, just wait til i leave. only then will i realize how horrible you treat me, so stfu bitch. k im done.

Erik, love u forever, youre my dream come true <33

( cool survey bc im procrastinating, stolen from manda =) )

[	mood	|	guilty	]
[	music	|	FOB	]

work sucks, my daniel made me cry today, bc he completely got out of control when i left, and they had to pry him off of me. Ive NEVER seen him like this EVER. he was screaming n crying and calling me momma...i cried when i left the room, and on the way home. I feel so bad for leaving him....i couldnt ever imagine leaving my kid at daycare, daniels not even my kid, and i had a hard time leaving him there to go home, even tho ill see him tomorrow, idk what id do if i had to leave my kid at daycare...i couldnt, thats why im gona be a stay at home mom. until they can go to real school (kindergarden n 1st gr). but yeh, ppl at my job are gettin fed up, and quitting, and i already put in a job application, so well see what happens. But, ive got a ton of hw to do and class, and i finally get to see my baby tonight!!!! (only to do hw, but still)/ update later

<3 forever yours <3

( mushy love song <33 )